At 8:45, 10-10-10, she and her parents are now at airport already for check-in... I can't go there , so I open my blog to write something in my mind.
Today we met and were on phone most of the time, since we don't want to be far away for that long (five days). We had very good time before she left.
When I missed her, she told me to read the book, but when she missed me, I told her to look up to the sky and call my name loudly, then she will reduce some missing... lolzzz
Safe and sound trip na darling... miss o nas right now
Sunday, October 10, 2010
On the day she leaves for Korea
Today it is very special day for everyone, 10-10-10. Today at 10pm, 10-10-10, I don't know how I feel at that time when she steps onto the plane to fly to Korea. Even though she only leaves for 5 days, I really don't understand why I feel uneasy right now. I will miss her, her voice, her face, and her teasing :).
I really want to see her off at the airport but unfortunately it is not possible to let her parents know about this hidden relationship. Therefore, I invited her to have lunch together on this special day and treated it as the seeing-off.
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I wish her safe and happy trip with her family. Take care of ya health too cos the weather is completely different from here. Wear Jeans and Long sleeves shirt with the Jacket if possible. See you soon. Miss so much
I really want to see her off at the airport but unfortunately it is not possible to let her parents know about this hidden relationship. Therefore, I invited her to have lunch together on this special day and treated it as the seeing-off.
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I wish her safe and happy trip with her family. Take care of ya health too cos the weather is completely different from here. Wear Jeans and Long sleeves shirt with the Jacket if possible. See you soon. Miss so much
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Tomorrow 10.10.10 is my best friend's birthday. Every year, he, other friends, and I always had a very nice dinner for his birthday, but this year everything has changed. He and I are no longer best friends, or even a simple friend cos of unclear reasons.
I really don't have any idea why this close relationship turns to be like this. No one knows about this except our close friends who always hang out together. We studied together at University and have been working together in a Ministry till now. We should be closer than before because we work together but things are unexpected lolzzzz. Misunderstanding or else is still doubtful to me. I tried to go back for the compromise with him several times but no results all the times. He becomes a different person, not only in my view but in other friends view too. I don't know what changes him like this. I still don't want to force him to do what he doesn't want too so I just use the word Let It Be. It is up to Fate and Time who can decide this relationship in the future. Hmmm, Just feel sorry for his special day that I can't join or even treat him a dinner........ok Let it Be.
In the end, I would like to say Happy Birthday to You My Dear Friend... You are still my friend forever no matter what you do to me right now. I hope you can have a very wonderful life from now onward since your life was full of misery in the past. Successful in everything buddy...
I really don't have any idea why this close relationship turns to be like this. No one knows about this except our close friends who always hang out together. We studied together at University and have been working together in a Ministry till now. We should be closer than before because we work together but things are unexpected lolzzzz. Misunderstanding or else is still doubtful to me. I tried to go back for the compromise with him several times but no results all the times. He becomes a different person, not only in my view but in other friends view too. I don't know what changes him like this. I still don't want to force him to do what he doesn't want too so I just use the word Let It Be. It is up to Fate and Time who can decide this relationship in the future. Hmmm, Just feel sorry for his special day that I can't join or even treat him a dinner........ok Let it Be.
In the end, I would like to say Happy Birthday to You My Dear Friend... You are still my friend forever no matter what you do to me right now. I hope you can have a very wonderful life from now onward since your life was full of misery in the past. Successful in everything buddy...
Very regretful
Today I started using my blog again after long time of no visit here. I am here to write something that I want to say in my mind.
I am very regretful what I did to a person whom I love. I left her alone for two months without any real reason, but only a simple excuse, which is No Time. Even though I am obliged to study and to work hard which result in spending most time on them , I should not have left her alone for that long. She always complaint that I was selfish and loved myself than anyone including her. I always blamed her for acting like childish and playfulness. I sometimes said like scolding her and used a rough speech to her , which made her very mad at me. I really didn't have anything to reply when she asked me many questions about those, but just gave a simple excuse that was my personality. I don't know what I am like, and I really don't understand myself either. I didn't know what I did in the past made her live in very deep misery for two months. Maybe she is right that I am selfish of Manism.
If I could go into the past, I would have not done this to her. I would like to collect all drop of her tears that already gone away and keep it in the white glasses to be a reminder when I repeat my mistake in the future. When I read her blog, I almost can't calm my feeling since most of her words touch me so much. I almost cried. And If I have cried to let her sad past turn happy, I would have to.
Fortunatley, Everything bad has gone so fast and made me and her to be together again. Time for me to remedy those things for her. It is a very regretful experience in my life.
I am very regretful what I did to a person whom I love. I left her alone for two months without any real reason, but only a simple excuse, which is No Time. Even though I am obliged to study and to work hard which result in spending most time on them , I should not have left her alone for that long. She always complaint that I was selfish and loved myself than anyone including her. I always blamed her for acting like childish and playfulness. I sometimes said like scolding her and used a rough speech to her , which made her very mad at me. I really didn't have anything to reply when she asked me many questions about those, but just gave a simple excuse that was my personality. I don't know what I am like, and I really don't understand myself either. I didn't know what I did in the past made her live in very deep misery for two months. Maybe she is right that I am selfish of Manism.
If I could go into the past, I would have not done this to her. I would like to collect all drop of her tears that already gone away and keep it in the white glasses to be a reminder when I repeat my mistake in the future. When I read her blog, I almost can't calm my feeling since most of her words touch me so much. I almost cried. And If I have cried to let her sad past turn happy, I would have to.
Fortunatley, Everything bad has gone so fast and made me and her to be together again. Time for me to remedy those things for her. It is a very regretful experience in my life.
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