Be strong and shiny as a tiny hidden bright star

November 13, 2010 at 1:30 AM Midnight...

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and Forever, I want you to be happy no matter what happen. In order for you to live happily in this beautiful world, I can sacrifice everything for you. Remember that I will be by your side at all circumstances, so let me know everything that is kept in your mind. Two is mostly better than one. Though I can't guarantee that all the problems are able to be solved and handled, at least I can give some ideas which might be helpful or at least I can get some shares of your sadness, misery, stress, happiness, delightfulness…

Regarding the recent doubtfully informal news that you just heard, it is sometimes not like what you are thinking. I use the word Doubtfully Informal News because it is not publicly formal announcement yet, so it is not certain that this will happen. It is not the time to react yet, but we should to be proactive silently without other notices. I just want to tell you that you should think what you need to do now first or to achieve in future such as your study and your work. Please don't worry about what has not occurred yet since it is useless, waste of time, headache, distracted to your goal. Be the way you are as always, Smile, Study, Talk, Chat, Tease, Advise, and all activities you always do every day. Be strong and shiny as a tiny hidden bright star as ever.

Life is full of joy, sadness, happiness, misery, fun and so on. Life is so complicated but without its complication, life is not meaningful. People also have many problems in life, so deal with it one by one, step by step, day by day. No one can escape from problems and if they can do, they are not human. The only way is to solve them as soon as they occur or to eliminate them in term of their sizes. So treat your not-yet-arriving problem as a taste of life, or a test of God to make your life full of meaning. This also applies to me too. I really want to try this test once in life and I will try till the end. We can fight it together, ok? Moreover, it no longer uses traditional theory Nom Min Thom Jeang Neal or arranged marriage. You can oppose to this idea. Despite not knowing what will the result when you disagree with them, at least you have a try or you already try your best to protect this love.

For me, I feel confident enough to be with you and to persuade your family regarding my qualification, education, career, and mental and physical criterion. As I told you, my weakness is only one thing at the moment. However, I don't let this weakness be my obstacle to this love. We can't predict the future of someone, so let me show your parents I will be able to live a happy life with their daughter from my empty hands. I can't guarantee that I will be rich in term of wealth, but I am sure I am rich in term of heart. The unknown man, who might be rich, handsome, tall, high educated or vice versa, is not the core of the problem since he hasn't known you at all. Beside richness, I don't think he is better than me. Studying abroad, scholarship or self-expense? How many come from abroad and be jobless in Cambodia right now? It is the possible reason for you to tell your parents.

The day you told me about this, I felt very depressed and couldn't say anything right or hardly speak right, so I had better say nothing at all. The whole night of consideration I feel so released because I can find several situation and solution to deter and deal with the problem. The situations are as the following:

1. You are the youngest child, so you must be married the latest. Your two sisters still haven't got married, so at least 2 or 3 years more that it is your turn.
2. Your father wants you to study abroad, and then it is a good sign that you can't be arranged marriage by your parents in this year.
3. You are the dearest daughter in family, so they won't force you to do what you don't like. At least, they ask you before they do sth.
4. That guy may be not as good as described by your grandmother, and your father can see differently, then he cannot accept him.

The solutions to deal with the problem if it is really occurring:

1. As I will get post very soon, perhaps in January, then I will be stable and have gut to meet your parent.
2. As you said, you can go to study to escape the problem first, then two year later, you will be back and I also have enough money to marry you.
3. As long as your parents don't mind my status, I am sure I can persuade him to trust on me or even to like me.

When thinking of those situation and reasons, I feel so released. I want you to think positively too. Whenever you are sad, I am sadder. When you sleep less, I sleep the least. So be happy, and then I will be happier. If you live well, I will live best. I am so hurt when I know you silently cry in your room. I am so painful like a knife stabbing on my heart whenever I know you are depressed. You know sometimes I am so stubborn which can't accept your word easily, I am so sensitive that can get mad easily, and I am careless that can give enough care to you… but all are unintentional and pretending. One second later, my stubbornness, my sensitiveness, and my carelessness disappear automatically and I become obedient, sensible, and caring instead, do you feel it? Or you need me to raise the real example that I used to do? Through this hardship, our relationship builds stronger and stronger and it is like a growing tree which cannot fall easily just because of tornado, let alone a windy storm like this.

What you told me to follow today, they are already in my mind and soul. It is neither condition nor promise, but it is an unavoidable reality that I must do for you. Whatever you want me to do, I will do it for you. You also need to do something for yourself as well as for me.

1. Be happy and always smile
2. Tell me everything both bad or good
3. Keep up with your goal
4. Don't sleep too late, must care your health
5. Believe in me
6. Love me as much as I love you

These are core ones and there are many left that I can't think of right now.
Last but not least, we must try our best to deal with all problems. We must go for our goals. We can't surrender before fighting. We must overcome the obstacles. We will fight till the end. We must do everything to protect this love. We must love each other forever.
Love you from the bottom of my heart

It is 3:53 AM early Morning... More than 2 hours of writing this post without tiredness.

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