Tuesday 29 March 2011 9:45PM
It is wonderful day, isn't it? Many good news come to me and I should be happy. First news is my honey's news related to her future job. The news seems positive and I feel content for her. She will be able to work and cut down some stresses that she encounters recently. Second news is related to my customs job, even it is not clear, but I think it should start so soon. Two good news at the same time, but why I feel blank at the moment and I feel not happy from inside. Why why why?
Ask who? Who can know even if I myself have no idea about this kind of feeling. Perhaps it is related to my study CPA, Master, and part time job Teaching at NUM? They have more or less to do this feeling I guess. What if I am assigned to work soon before the semester finished? How could i manage to teach to study and to finish those tasks? I used to write I decided wrong twice, the first I chose to teach one class while I wait for the news from workplace, but no news, and now second decision I took three class, then the news seems to come earlier before semester ends. How many decision I will make wrong in future?
Let keep it in mind cos it is ur problem and ur choice... no one can help u besides u urself. You need to deal with it by urself, and find the way out on ur own.
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Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
14 March 2010 - 14 March 2011 in Picture
At titanic, looking into her eyes with a smile from my heartmixed with the noise of my stomach movement due to hungry hahahaha
She was so shy when I looked into her eyes and turned toother direction to avoid my charming eyes lolzzzzzzzzzzzz
She hold my hand so tightly that I cannot run away from
her... She loves me THAT MUCH !!!! :)
A night background is very nice ... Love that moment
In this world, there are only you and me :))))))))
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Love stories
Saturday 26 Feb 2011, 10:36 PM
I am really excited about the good news of my friends who struggle for their love and now they get good news which get married at the end of this year. Congratulation friends, although I don't know them clearly, but I feel excited for their wonderful love. They seem not have any obstacles just only one problem which is based on Fortuneteller, and now the result is wonderful , so their love is successful and step into the marriage life soon.
another story about the friend of my friend who was born as a son of the rich high class family, and he happens to know a simple middle class girl in class , where they study together. They love each other of many years, and after graduation, they promise to marry each other. God seems not to bless this couple , cos the status and class won't allow them to be together, simply meaning is that parent of the boy absolutely deny this love and won't accept her as future in law. They cried lots together, and try to be together when out of sight of their parents. till now, it has been two years since the denial of marriage by their parent. They continue unclear and blur relationship cos they love each other strongly. I don't know what will the result in the future of this love... I just hope their strong love will soften the boy's parent heart soon.
a friend of mind , on the other hand, love a female classmate for long time. They get along well and also come arcoss pain and happiness along the love road too. Several times , they decided to break up cos of some misunderstanding , and some problems made them cried together many times. However, nothing can win true love, so they start to the point of no return , which is only going forward. Till now, they also are known by both family and are accepted to be engaged so soon. Hope both of them get married soon.
and many other story that is very romantic and can touch my heart ... let Buddha bless me :(
Deepblue
I am really excited about the good news of my friends who struggle for their love and now they get good news which get married at the end of this year. Congratulation friends, although I don't know them clearly, but I feel excited for their wonderful love. They seem not have any obstacles just only one problem which is based on Fortuneteller, and now the result is wonderful , so their love is successful and step into the marriage life soon.
another story about the friend of my friend who was born as a son of the rich high class family, and he happens to know a simple middle class girl in class , where they study together. They love each other of many years, and after graduation, they promise to marry each other. God seems not to bless this couple , cos the status and class won't allow them to be together, simply meaning is that parent of the boy absolutely deny this love and won't accept her as future in law. They cried lots together, and try to be together when out of sight of their parents. till now, it has been two years since the denial of marriage by their parent. They continue unclear and blur relationship cos they love each other strongly. I don't know what will the result in the future of this love... I just hope their strong love will soften the boy's parent heart soon.
a friend of mind , on the other hand, love a female classmate for long time. They get along well and also come arcoss pain and happiness along the love road too. Several times , they decided to break up cos of some misunderstanding , and some problems made them cried together many times. However, nothing can win true love, so they start to the point of no return , which is only going forward. Till now, they also are known by both family and are accepted to be engaged so soon. Hope both of them get married soon.
and many other story that is very romantic and can touch my heart ... let Buddha bless me :(
Deepblue
Monday, February 21, 2011
ត្រៀមនឹងទទួលគ្រប់យ៉ាងនៅថ្ងៃនេះ
ចន្ទ ២១ កុម្ភៈ ២០១១ ម៉ោង០០:២៧
ខ្ញុំនៅតែបារម្ភពីលទ្ធផលនៅព្រឹកនេះ មិនដឹងថាវាយ៉ាងម៉េចទេ គេថាធ្លាក់ ឬ ជាប់ជារឿងធម្មតា តែសំរាប់ខ្ញុំ គឹជារឿងធំ ។ វាមិនដូចជាមុខវិជ្ជាផ្សេងដទៃទៀត ហើយក៏មិនដូចជាសាលាធម្មតាផ្សេង ទៀតដែរ ។ ធ្លាក់មួយ វគ្គគឺខាតធ្ងន់ណាស់ ហើយនឹងធ្វើអោយខាតពេលវេលាទៀត។ បើសិនជាខ្ញុំមានសំណាងជាប់ ពិតជាសប្បាយចិត្តណាស់ ។
តែហាក់ដូចអត់សង្ឈឹមសោះ
ខ្ញុំនៅតែបារម្ភពីលទ្ធផលនៅព្រឹកនេះ មិនដឹងថាវាយ៉ាងម៉េចទេ គេថាធ្លាក់ ឬ ជាប់ជារឿងធម្មតា តែសំរាប់ខ្ញុំ គឹជារឿងធំ ។ វាមិនដូចជាមុខវិជ្ជាផ្សេងដទៃទៀត ហើយក៏មិនដូចជាសាលាធម្មតាផ្សេង ទៀតដែរ ។ ធ្លាក់មួយ វគ្គគឺខាតធ្ងន់ណាស់ ហើយនឹងធ្វើអោយខាតពេលវេលាទៀត។ បើសិនជាខ្ញុំមានសំណាងជាប់ ពិតជាសប្បាយចិត្តណាស់ ។
តែហាក់ដូចអត់សង្ឈឹមសោះ
Sunday, February 20, 2011
ខួរក្បាលខ្ញុំកំពុងតែគិតអ្វី
ថ្ងៃអាទិត្យ ២០ កុម្ភៈ ២០១១ ម៉ោង ១៧:១៤
មិនដឹងចាប់ផ្តើមពីត្រង់ណាបានត្រូវទេ ព្រោះខួរក្បាលខ្ញុំមួយនេះវាដើររហូត ដែលធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំគិតមិនយល ថាខ្ញុំកំពុងតែគិតអី ធ្វើអីអោប្រាកដ គ្រាន់តែដឹងថា វាយ៉ាប់ណាស់ ពិបាកទ្រាំណាស់ ធុញថប់ណាស់ ច្របូកច្របល់រក ថាមិនត្រូវ។ កើតជាមនុស្សដែលគិតច្រើន ខុសពីអ្នកដទៃ ដែលគេស្គាល់តែភាពសប្បាយ ហ៊ឺហា មិនចេះខ្វល់ខ្វាយអ្វីឡើយ គឺពិតជា គួរអោយគេធុញទ្រាញ់ណាស់ ។ ពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ័ថា ឯកាណាស់ ទោះបីជាខ្ញុំមានសង្សារក៏ដោយ ព្រេះយើងមិនបានជួបគ្នារាល់ថ្ងៃនោះទេ ហើយពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំចង់ នៅស្ងាត់ ម្នាក់ឯង មិនចង់និយាយអ្វីទាំងអស់ ពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំនិយាយច្រើនដល់ថ្នាក់មិនយល់ថាខ្លួនឯងនិយាយពីអី ជួនកាល ក៏ស្រងូតស្រងាត់មិនដឹងរឿង គេថាខ្ញុំជាមនុស្សពិបាកយល់ចិត្ត ខ្ញុំទទួលស្គាល់ ព្រោះសូម្បី តែខ្ញុំក៏មិនដឹងថា ខ្លួនឯងចង់បានអ្វីនោះដែរ។
ការងាររាល់ថ្ងៃមិនដឹងជានៅឯណា ប្រាក់កាសក៏មិនសម្បូរ ស្នេហាក៏ជួប ឧបសគ្គ វ័យប៉ុណ្ណេះទៅហើយ មិនទាន់មានស្ថិរភាពលំនឹងជីវិតទៀត ខ្ញុំពេលេនេះមិនអាចចិញ្ចឹមខ្លួនឯងរួចផង តើអោយខ្ញុំទៅចិញ្ចឹម អ្នកណារស់ ។ ខួរក្បាលនៅតែដើរឥតឈប់ ទោះថ្ងៃយប់នៅតែគិត មិនដឹងថ្ងៃណាទេដែលជីវិត មាន ក្តីសង្ឈឹម។ សុខទុក្ខខ្ញុំម្នាក់ឯងមិនថ្វីទេ បើនៅតែឯង ខ្ញុំនឹងរស់នៅដោយគ្មានខ្វល់ តែខ្ញុំនៅមាន ម្តាយ បងស្រី គ្រួសារ នឹងសង្សារសំណប់ទៀត។ សេចក្តីសុខរបស់ខ្ញុំពិតជាមិនសំខាន់ឡើយ អោយតែធ្វើអោយពួកគេមានសេចក្តីសុខ ខ្ញុំក៏សុខដែរ។ បច្ចុប្បន្ន ជីវិតដូចជាចកកណ្តាលសមុទ្រ តែល តោលគ្មានទិសដៅ ការសិក្សាក៏មិនទាន់ចប់ លទ្ធផលក៏មិនទាន់ដឹង ហើយនៅតែមិនច្បាស់ថាអាច បញ្ចប់ការសិក្សាទាំងពីរ នេះដូចដែរបានគិតរឺអត់ផង ព្រោះស្ថានភាពខាងមុខរឹតតែមើលមិនយល់ទាល់ តែសោះ។ ខ្ញុំខុសប្លែកអស់ហើយ ជីវិតដែលធ្លាប់តែសប្បាយ ក្លាយជាវិបត្ត ទុក្ខសោក រកអ្វីមកប្រៀប ផ្ទឹម មិនបាន ។ មួយរយៈ ចុងក្រោយ ស្នេហាជួបវិបត្តិដោយសារ តែវណ្ណៈគ្រួសារ ដែលធ្វើអោយជីវិត ស្នេហានេះ មិនដឹងថារស់ដល់ពេលណា ទោះបីជាយើងសច្ចានឹងគ្នាថា ត្រូវតែតស៊ូដល់ទីបញ្ចប់ក៏ដោយ ។ គេកើតទុក្ខរាល់ថ្ងៃ គេយំរាល់ថ្ងៃ គេតឹងទ្រូងរាល់ថ្ងៃ គឺដោយសារតែរឿងនេះ តើវាជាកំហុសខ្ញុំជាអ្នក ផ្តើមមែនទេ? បើអត់មានវត្តមានខ្ញុំ ម៉្លេះសមគេមិនពិបាកចិត្តដល់ម្លឹង ហើយក៏មិនមែនអាក្រក់ក្នុងក្រសែ ភ្នែកប៉ាម៉ាក់គេដែ។ បើអត់ខ្ញុំ គេប្រហែលជាជួបមនុស្សប្រុស ដែលមានលក្ខ័ន្ត ល្អជាងខ្ញុំដប់ម្ភៃដងក៏ថាបាន។ ហើយគេក៏មិនពិបាកចិត្តជាមួយមនុស្សដូចខ្ញុំ មិនបាច់ព្យាយាមសំរបជាមួយមនុស្សគ្មាន បេះដូងដូចខ្ញុំម្នាក់នេះ គេក៏មិនក្លាយឈ្មោះជាកួនស្រីអកត្តញ្ញូ ។ បើពេលវេលាដើរថយក្រោយ ខ្ញុំសុខ ចិត្តរើសនៅតែស្រឡាញ់គេតែឯង ដោយមិនអោយគេដឹង ប្រសើរជាង ទោះដឹងថាអាម្មណ៏បែបនេះ គឺលំបាក និង ឈឺចាប់ខ្លាំងយ៉ាងក៏ដោយ តែវាឈឺចាប់តែខ្ញុំម្នាក់គឺគ្រប់គ្រាន់ហើយ ហើយគេប្រហែល ទៅរៀនបរទេស រឺក៏រៀបការដោយសប្បាយចិត្តតាមគំនិតម្តាយ ព្រោះចិត្តគេនៅបរិសុទ្ធនៅឡើយ។ សរុចទៅបើអត់ខ្ញុំ បញ្ហាមួយនេះគឺមិនមាន។
ហ៊ឹ បើចង់និយាយ និយាយមួយថ្ងៃក៏មិនចប់ដែល សូមអោយអ្វីបានប្រសើរ ហ៊ឹ
វេហាស៍ដ៏ស្រងាត់
មិនដឹងចាប់ផ្តើមពីត្រង់ណាបានត្រូវទេ ព្រោះខួរក្បាលខ្ញុំមួយនេះវាដើររហូត ដែលធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំគិតមិនយល ថាខ្ញុំកំពុងតែគិតអី ធ្វើអីអោប្រាកដ គ្រាន់តែដឹងថា វាយ៉ាប់ណាស់ ពិបាកទ្រាំណាស់ ធុញថប់ណាស់ ច្របូកច្របល់រក ថាមិនត្រូវ។ កើតជាមនុស្សដែលគិតច្រើន ខុសពីអ្នកដទៃ ដែលគេស្គាល់តែភាពសប្បាយ ហ៊ឺហា មិនចេះខ្វល់ខ្វាយអ្វីឡើយ គឺពិតជា គួរអោយគេធុញទ្រាញ់ណាស់ ។ ពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ័ថា ឯកាណាស់ ទោះបីជាខ្ញុំមានសង្សារក៏ដោយ ព្រេះយើងមិនបានជួបគ្នារាល់ថ្ងៃនោះទេ ហើយពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំចង់ នៅស្ងាត់ ម្នាក់ឯង មិនចង់និយាយអ្វីទាំងអស់ ពេលខ្លះខ្ញុំនិយាយច្រើនដល់ថ្នាក់មិនយល់ថាខ្លួនឯងនិយាយពីអី ជួនកាល ក៏ស្រងូតស្រងាត់មិនដឹងរឿង គេថាខ្ញុំជាមនុស្សពិបាកយល់ចិត្ត ខ្ញុំទទួលស្គាល់ ព្រោះសូម្បី តែខ្ញុំក៏មិនដឹងថា ខ្លួនឯងចង់បានអ្វីនោះដែរ។
ការងាររាល់ថ្ងៃមិនដឹងជានៅឯណា ប្រាក់កាសក៏មិនសម្បូរ ស្នេហាក៏ជួប ឧបសគ្គ វ័យប៉ុណ្ណេះទៅហើយ មិនទាន់មានស្ថិរភាពលំនឹងជីវិតទៀត ខ្ញុំពេលេនេះមិនអាចចិញ្ចឹមខ្លួនឯងរួចផង តើអោយខ្ញុំទៅចិញ្ចឹម អ្នកណារស់ ។ ខួរក្បាលនៅតែដើរឥតឈប់ ទោះថ្ងៃយប់នៅតែគិត មិនដឹងថ្ងៃណាទេដែលជីវិត មាន ក្តីសង្ឈឹម។ សុខទុក្ខខ្ញុំម្នាក់ឯងមិនថ្វីទេ បើនៅតែឯង ខ្ញុំនឹងរស់នៅដោយគ្មានខ្វល់ តែខ្ញុំនៅមាន ម្តាយ បងស្រី គ្រួសារ នឹងសង្សារសំណប់ទៀត។ សេចក្តីសុខរបស់ខ្ញុំពិតជាមិនសំខាន់ឡើយ អោយតែធ្វើអោយពួកគេមានសេចក្តីសុខ ខ្ញុំក៏សុខដែរ។ បច្ចុប្បន្ន ជីវិតដូចជាចកកណ្តាលសមុទ្រ តែល តោលគ្មានទិសដៅ ការសិក្សាក៏មិនទាន់ចប់ លទ្ធផលក៏មិនទាន់ដឹង ហើយនៅតែមិនច្បាស់ថាអាច បញ្ចប់ការសិក្សាទាំងពីរ នេះដូចដែរបានគិតរឺអត់ផង ព្រោះស្ថានភាពខាងមុខរឹតតែមើលមិនយល់ទាល់ តែសោះ។ ខ្ញុំខុសប្លែកអស់ហើយ ជីវិតដែលធ្លាប់តែសប្បាយ ក្លាយជាវិបត្ត ទុក្ខសោក រកអ្វីមកប្រៀប ផ្ទឹម មិនបាន ។ មួយរយៈ ចុងក្រោយ ស្នេហាជួបវិបត្តិដោយសារ តែវណ្ណៈគ្រួសារ ដែលធ្វើអោយជីវិត ស្នេហានេះ មិនដឹងថារស់ដល់ពេលណា ទោះបីជាយើងសច្ចានឹងគ្នាថា ត្រូវតែតស៊ូដល់ទីបញ្ចប់ក៏ដោយ ។ គេកើតទុក្ខរាល់ថ្ងៃ គេយំរាល់ថ្ងៃ គេតឹងទ្រូងរាល់ថ្ងៃ គឺដោយសារតែរឿងនេះ តើវាជាកំហុសខ្ញុំជាអ្នក ផ្តើមមែនទេ? បើអត់មានវត្តមានខ្ញុំ ម៉្លេះសមគេមិនពិបាកចិត្តដល់ម្លឹង ហើយក៏មិនមែនអាក្រក់ក្នុងក្រសែ ភ្នែកប៉ាម៉ាក់គេដែ។ បើអត់ខ្ញុំ គេប្រហែលជាជួបមនុស្សប្រុស ដែលមានលក្ខ័ន្ត ល្អជាងខ្ញុំដប់ម្ភៃដងក៏ថាបាន។ ហើយគេក៏មិនពិបាកចិត្តជាមួយមនុស្សដូចខ្ញុំ មិនបាច់ព្យាយាមសំរបជាមួយមនុស្សគ្មាន បេះដូងដូចខ្ញុំម្នាក់នេះ គេក៏មិនក្លាយឈ្មោះជាកួនស្រីអកត្តញ្ញូ ។ បើពេលវេលាដើរថយក្រោយ ខ្ញុំសុខ ចិត្តរើសនៅតែស្រឡាញ់គេតែឯង ដោយមិនអោយគេដឹង ប្រសើរជាង ទោះដឹងថាអាម្មណ៏បែបនេះ គឺលំបាក និង ឈឺចាប់ខ្លាំងយ៉ាងក៏ដោយ តែវាឈឺចាប់តែខ្ញុំម្នាក់គឺគ្រប់គ្រាន់ហើយ ហើយគេប្រហែល ទៅរៀនបរទេស រឺក៏រៀបការដោយសប្បាយចិត្តតាមគំនិតម្តាយ ព្រោះចិត្តគេនៅបរិសុទ្ធនៅឡើយ។ សរុចទៅបើអត់ខ្ញុំ បញ្ហាមួយនេះគឺមិនមាន។
ហ៊ឹ បើចង់និយាយ និយាយមួយថ្ងៃក៏មិនចប់ដែល សូមអោយអ្វីបានប្រសើរ ហ៊ឹ
វេហាស៍ដ៏ស្រងាត់
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Dad I miss you so much when I am mentally weak
Wednesday 16 Feb 2011, 11:40 PM
I just got the bad shocking news from my relative that my big aunt, elder sister of my father, just passed away this afternoon. She fell the serious sick for 3 or 4 days although her chronicle illness is with her since young age. Last month, my big aunt, the elder sister of my father too, also passed away, and now it is her sister 's turn. Although they are old and I am not so close to them when they are alive, they are still my relative. I am so shocked when something turned to this so suddenly. However, I didn't cry , perhaps I am not so close to them, but I am so sad about this.
Whenever I am sad and weak, only person that make me think of is my beloved and respectful father. He seems to be near me whenever I am down. It has been 3 years now since he left me and I cried every time I think of him , think of the time before he died, the way he wanted to talk to me but he couldn't, how he was hurt before he closed his eyes forever, how he groaned , and I still remember every action he take at that time... I miss you Dad, You are my power of mind to do anything else. How are you? Now you are in Heaven , right? You always look after me from distance right? Now I feel mixed up Dad. I don't know what I am thinking about and why I am so sad like this tonight. Whenever I see the reunion in other family, I am always sad,not because I am jealous of their hapiness, but I miss you cos I lose you when I am not stable. I want to have you again to treat you well , to make you feel like a king, to make you proud of me... Dad, don't worry about Mum and sisters and brothers, they are well and I promise to take a good care of them...
Tonight I am weak , Dad, but Tomorrow I will be strong again cos I won't be like this or You will be disappointed. Believe in your son Dad. I miss you so much , Dad.
From your son
Rith
I just got the bad shocking news from my relative that my big aunt, elder sister of my father, just passed away this afternoon. She fell the serious sick for 3 or 4 days although her chronicle illness is with her since young age. Last month, my big aunt, the elder sister of my father too, also passed away, and now it is her sister 's turn. Although they are old and I am not so close to them when they are alive, they are still my relative. I am so shocked when something turned to this so suddenly. However, I didn't cry , perhaps I am not so close to them, but I am so sad about this.
Whenever I am sad and weak, only person that make me think of is my beloved and respectful father. He seems to be near me whenever I am down. It has been 3 years now since he left me and I cried every time I think of him , think of the time before he died, the way he wanted to talk to me but he couldn't, how he was hurt before he closed his eyes forever, how he groaned , and I still remember every action he take at that time... I miss you Dad, You are my power of mind to do anything else. How are you? Now you are in Heaven , right? You always look after me from distance right? Now I feel mixed up Dad. I don't know what I am thinking about and why I am so sad like this tonight. Whenever I see the reunion in other family, I am always sad,not because I am jealous of their hapiness, but I miss you cos I lose you when I am not stable. I want to have you again to treat you well , to make you feel like a king, to make you proud of me... Dad, don't worry about Mum and sisters and brothers, they are well and I promise to take a good care of them...
Tonight I am weak , Dad, but Tomorrow I will be strong again cos I won't be like this or You will be disappointed. Believe in your son Dad. I miss you so much , Dad.
From your son
Rith
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Does god want to play with me
27-01-2011 Thursday 21:39
It is long time since exam that I was stuck and down cos of my brain. This morning I got a good news from GDCE my work place about the upcoming result released, I was so happy at the time. In the afternoon, happy time turned to the sad one. Why? It is my brain that can't work well like before and It is the illness which still follow me (headache and dizzy, nose problem, inspirational problem).
I am the person who never surrender before fighting since I was young and what I wanted to do must be done even thought sometimes I cannot be successful. Mainly, I am not a strong man who can use physical appearance to work, but I use a small complicated staff about several kg in my head to think, to study, to work, to earn and most of everything in my life, which is BRAIN. Without it, I can say that I will be a handicap person.
Many of my achievement in life and honorable credit is gained cos of IT. I have used it nearly 26 years already and I hope I can use it until the day I die. My health is not so good as other people , I often get sick esp my nose. Last time, I have my nose bone operated in VN that I was told it is curved. For this reason , I can't breathe well. After operation, I still feel bad and it still hurts when the changes of weather. The more serious one now is that it affects my head. I don't know it is the core cause to make me more headache than before or not, but I just feel that way.
Recently, I took exam for ACCA course and I was prepared much with those two rough courses that made me use my brain so bad. As a result, it becomes tired now and works improperly till now. This afternoon, I just corrected my student work and noted the mark in the list, I find it simple thing , but it turn me to be nearly crazy cos of the letter and confusing name. I was so stuck and my brain start crying.... Hmmm just a little staff like , I still can't control it , let alone the big matter. ACCA needs to use much thinking and analysing, so I must need a good brain to use to achieve it, but now what? My head is ached just only correcting homework, let alone ACCA papers. How about my work? my plan? my further study? Everything needs thinking. What can I do right now? I cannot do anything cos it is beyond my control.
I am really scared and afraid that I will become a handicapped one day. What if I turn crazy ? What if I turn to be a forgetful person? or What if I forget the past like a drama? If I live in this world alone, I would not be sad , but I have many people to take care of , so Plz my buddha, dont punish me in that way! Plz don't play with me so long ! Every time I think about it, It is hard to breathe... sigh... let me take deep breath before continue writing this ......Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Hopefully, God doesn't block my way as My honey told me. I do the good thing since I was born, I never cheat people, never kill people, never do sth bad to society, so God won't punish me anyway. Happy to have her by my side when I was down. When I read her message in my FB, I felt as she was hugging me and saying those consoling word. Thanks you SD to be with me.
Good night.. cos I promised to follow what she told.
Deepblue Sky
It is long time since exam that I was stuck and down cos of my brain. This morning I got a good news from GDCE my work place about the upcoming result released, I was so happy at the time. In the afternoon, happy time turned to the sad one. Why? It is my brain that can't work well like before and It is the illness which still follow me (headache and dizzy, nose problem, inspirational problem).
I am the person who never surrender before fighting since I was young and what I wanted to do must be done even thought sometimes I cannot be successful. Mainly, I am not a strong man who can use physical appearance to work, but I use a small complicated staff about several kg in my head to think, to study, to work, to earn and most of everything in my life, which is BRAIN. Without it, I can say that I will be a handicap person.
Many of my achievement in life and honorable credit is gained cos of IT. I have used it nearly 26 years already and I hope I can use it until the day I die. My health is not so good as other people , I often get sick esp my nose. Last time, I have my nose bone operated in VN that I was told it is curved. For this reason , I can't breathe well. After operation, I still feel bad and it still hurts when the changes of weather. The more serious one now is that it affects my head. I don't know it is the core cause to make me more headache than before or not, but I just feel that way.
Recently, I took exam for ACCA course and I was prepared much with those two rough courses that made me use my brain so bad. As a result, it becomes tired now and works improperly till now. This afternoon, I just corrected my student work and noted the mark in the list, I find it simple thing , but it turn me to be nearly crazy cos of the letter and confusing name. I was so stuck and my brain start crying.... Hmmm just a little staff like , I still can't control it , let alone the big matter. ACCA needs to use much thinking and analysing, so I must need a good brain to use to achieve it, but now what? My head is ached just only correcting homework, let alone ACCA papers. How about my work? my plan? my further study? Everything needs thinking. What can I do right now? I cannot do anything cos it is beyond my control.
I am really scared and afraid that I will become a handicapped one day. What if I turn crazy ? What if I turn to be a forgetful person? or What if I forget the past like a drama? If I live in this world alone, I would not be sad , but I have many people to take care of , so Plz my buddha, dont punish me in that way! Plz don't play with me so long ! Every time I think about it, It is hard to breathe... sigh... let me take deep breath before continue writing this ......Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Hopefully, God doesn't block my way as My honey told me. I do the good thing since I was born, I never cheat people, never kill people, never do sth bad to society, so God won't punish me anyway. Happy to have her by my side when I was down. When I read her message in my FB, I felt as she was hugging me and saying those consoling word. Thanks you SD to be with me.
Good night.. cos I promised to follow what she told.
Deepblue Sky
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
Can you say a word I want to hear?
Am I a fool ? Why I like doing things against my conscience? Why I choose to leave without any direction in life? Why I choose the way of opposing my mind? What should I do to make me happy from this moment onward? I keep resting in my room without lunch and weep alone in the middle of no where. It is because I regret what I did? or It is because I still love her? Why she can't understand me a bit? Why she can't even say a word to make me stay? Does she really love me? Or she really wants me to do so? Or she never know why I wrote it? Many questions come to my mind but no answer, that make me almost crazy. I will be crazy soon if that situation is still worse.
I ride along riverside without my soul in my body and almost have accident, but luckily I am ok. I see the young couple laughing to each other, which make me so jealous. Why my time is so soon to finish? My face is like a ghost that can be revealed clearly in public, that make everyone mostly looks at me and ask what happened. I just answer it is nothing, I am so sick today. I need to teach this evening, and I don't know if I can stand and face my student with my smiley face as usual or not, since everything she said is still in my mind till now.
The plan of her Sis's wedding, her BD, Valentine, First year anniversary are already set clearly. Today is the major plan of mine to countdown with her together since I never do it with my beloved till this age. I really want to shout out loud from where I will be that I Love You at 00:00 tonight, but now what can I do if she cannot say a word to make me stay? Or Does she think I really meant to say goodbye without being responsible anything for her and her life. I may be young in term of love, but I am so matured in term of Life. I am a man who also have full of responsibility. Why is so hard to stop me from doing this? Why she like to push me away from her? now I am in Library in CamEd and my tear is shed in my eyes. I no longer feel ashamed anyone cos of this Love. Don't I love her Enough? Can anyone tell me more about Love?
Last time we had lots fun together, the way back home from eating Soup, I hold her hand tight and I commit and wisher to myself that I will not leave her hand in the middle way. I am proud to be with her. I am so happy to see her smile and being with me. And feel comfortable to see her care. What else can I do to make you stop me from leaving you? I really love you from my heart, Duong Sochivy. I could die for you if you want, so just say a word I want to hear.
Deepblue Sky.
I ride along riverside without my soul in my body and almost have accident, but luckily I am ok. I see the young couple laughing to each other, which make me so jealous. Why my time is so soon to finish? My face is like a ghost that can be revealed clearly in public, that make everyone mostly looks at me and ask what happened. I just answer it is nothing, I am so sick today. I need to teach this evening, and I don't know if I can stand and face my student with my smiley face as usual or not, since everything she said is still in my mind till now.
The plan of her Sis's wedding, her BD, Valentine, First year anniversary are already set clearly. Today is the major plan of mine to countdown with her together since I never do it with my beloved till this age. I really want to shout out loud from where I will be that I Love You at 00:00 tonight, but now what can I do if she cannot say a word to make me stay? Or Does she think I really meant to say goodbye without being responsible anything for her and her life. I may be young in term of love, but I am so matured in term of Life. I am a man who also have full of responsibility. Why is so hard to stop me from doing this? Why she like to push me away from her? now I am in Library in CamEd and my tear is shed in my eyes. I no longer feel ashamed anyone cos of this Love. Don't I love her Enough? Can anyone tell me more about Love?
Last time we had lots fun together, the way back home from eating Soup, I hold her hand tight and I commit and wisher to myself that I will not leave her hand in the middle way. I am proud to be with her. I am so happy to see her smile and being with me. And feel comfortable to see her care. What else can I do to make you stop me from leaving you? I really love you from my heart, Duong Sochivy. I could die for you if you want, so just say a word I want to hear.
Deepblue Sky.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I told everything but just indirectly
12:34 AM, 1 December 2010, PP, Cambodia
After finishing reading for about 3 hours, I feel it works today. Glad to have such feeling. My head is not hurt so bad as yesterday. It is good sign for me to achieve this task. after seeing many comments on fb and replying those, I feel refreshed and opened the blog of mine and hers. It was like what I expected. I saw something.
I feel that I am lucky to have her as my girlfriend, but why am I not be able to be good boyfriend in her view ? She often said that I didn't tell her my stories and kept those things alone. In fact, I told everything to her but just Indirectly. I really have no idea to tell exact problem to her since I am a man who have high responsibility. I can't tell her straightforward about my problems. However, I also don't hide her too. I show them to her in many ways but just sometimes she didn't notice or she noticed but I pretended not to notice what she noticed, sic! I just want to say that I have told you anything I have in mind secretly, so I hope you understand this.
I never give up the goal in life that I set as before. I am still who I am , who she has known. Just sometimes I am in blur and think wrong for a while. I will do what I want to do as she know how stubborn I am. I will fight till the end. My word is Go For It! I want to see her to live with a happy life for the rest of her life with me, so I need to study hard and work hard too to earn much money... Who say Money is not important? That's completely wrong. I need money now to marry her as soon as possible. Without it, My life will be suck. Without it, I will lose her. So I need it very much.
Hope everything will be fine...
Deepblue
After finishing reading for about 3 hours, I feel it works today. Glad to have such feeling. My head is not hurt so bad as yesterday. It is good sign for me to achieve this task. after seeing many comments on fb and replying those, I feel refreshed and opened the blog of mine and hers. It was like what I expected. I saw something.
I feel that I am lucky to have her as my girlfriend, but why am I not be able to be good boyfriend in her view ? She often said that I didn't tell her my stories and kept those things alone. In fact, I told everything to her but just Indirectly. I really have no idea to tell exact problem to her since I am a man who have high responsibility. I can't tell her straightforward about my problems. However, I also don't hide her too. I show them to her in many ways but just sometimes she didn't notice or she noticed but I pretended not to notice what she noticed, sic! I just want to say that I have told you anything I have in mind secretly, so I hope you understand this.
I never give up the goal in life that I set as before. I am still who I am , who she has known. Just sometimes I am in blur and think wrong for a while. I will do what I want to do as she know how stubborn I am. I will fight till the end. My word is Go For It! I want to see her to live with a happy life for the rest of her life with me, so I need to study hard and work hard too to earn much money... Who say Money is not important? That's completely wrong. I need money now to marry her as soon as possible. Without it, My life will be suck. Without it, I will lose her. So I need it very much.
Hope everything will be fine...
Deepblue
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
What if I am not able to... one day
10:35AM, 30 November 2010, PP, Cambodia
Good morning! It is the fresh and cold morning that made me lying on my bed since I woke up at 6AM. Yesterday I had a very severe headache, I don't know why it often happened to me lately during my self studying. It is not like the normal headache that I used to get, but it is kind of hard bearing headache, like something stabbing in my head at the back. I really want to fight with it,so I continue read read read but it becomes hurt and more hurt that force me to stop. Even I stop but it still lasts, I hardly sleep well as usual. I couldn't talk much at that time, cos it still hurts. She called me cos she was worried about me but I couldn't reply her answer steadily. I knew she would be unhappy less or more, and might have thought why I chose to bear hurt alone and why not sharing those with her. I really wanted but it was not yet time.
The upcoming exam approaches soon. only 9 days left to prepare for it, but I admit that I am not confident at all to pass both paper. It is my bad. I spend much time on it since the beginning of the term but it is not effective since many problems effects this. Recently, I am very committed to the preparation, but it turns to be negative cos of my headache. I guess I might have problem with physical illness related to head or brain. Last year, My friend also had this symptom cos he also studied ACCA that needs to study hard for each paper. Maybe he wants to get high score or so, he started being headache at the back like me now. He went to VN to do Xray, luckily the result was OK. I feel worried at that time that he might face the serious illness, but after getting the result, I was so released.
Now it is my turn. I hope I don't have anything wrong with my health cos I have many people to be responsible for. I don't want to make them disappointed in me and I don't want to leave them in the middle of nowhere at all. God! why are you so cruel with me? First, you took my healthy nose, and I become the person who hard breathe... Then You took my ears, even not deaf, but they becomes slow hearing, You took my bright eyes, resulting I wear glasses to read, to write, to see, to loot at thing.... and now do you want to take my head my brain more? Or you want to take my life? If I was alone in this world, I would sacrifice for you, but I have family, my beloved, who need me much. I can't leave them, can you give me a chance to have a healthy head to get what I want? Do you know I am too hurt to get such feeling ? the feeling that can't do anything I want...feeling like the disable person... Last night, my tear drops again when thinking of my beloved family and my beloved gf. I feel so hopeless at the time you made me like this. I don't know when I can recover from this or you take it forever?
After waking up from several hours sleep, I feel a bit better that makes me wanna write write write anything I face from today onward, cos I don't know when You took my hands more. I am afraid one day I can't realized who I am and the people around me. I am so scared when thinking about it. I wish it would not happen to me. I do only good things, so God won't punish me in that way surely.
Deepblue
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Let have a wish for tonight full moon
11:15pm, 21.11.2010, @PP, Cambodia
Today, it is second day of Water Festival which is very popular for Khmer people to gather in Phnom Penh at Midnight. This is also the chance for adolescents, who traditionally is forbidden going out at night time, to go for awalk with their friends or sweetheart at night time :D. It is wonderful day for everyone excluding me since I am stuck with something unreasonable from this afternoon. Really disappointed the way she did to me...
I can say that I change so much since I start the second time with her. I can say something that I never say before and I do things that I don't like. I start joking, mocking, fighting, with her to make her happy. I try to understand her very much cos I really have no idea to understand one's mind, even my own mind. I admit it is hard for me to do so. I am not good at consoling or doing something sweet. I don't know how to do it for sure. I know she also know this too but why she always pushes me to do those things again and again. The hardest thing I find on earth is to console the girl. To say something again and again make me so tense, but I don't know how to tell her about my feeling te cos she said loving someone needs to know how to console the lovers. Sorry, I can't do it smoothly. Why don't she know this ? Why don't she let the way I am? Why she like nagging mocking fighting which I don't really like? I like to say straightforward... but when I do the way I think, she said it is not love, no sweet , no taste of love even a bit... Just want to be a couple who never mock, nag, fight each other .. Just want to be a couple who are mature about love. Care each other doesn't mean we need to mock nag and fight te.. many things that we can show the care by the word or action. Even I have low knowledge in it, I still want to choose the last option. To tell the truth, I am a bit sensitive, traditional, and Manism. She also knows somehow, but still she want to nag me with this teat.
The thing I hate the most is the impolite word from the girl to the man. At lease, man has pride to get such a good word from Sweetheart. It is hard to accept the word KiKi from her. I know she didn't mean it but just kidding also care about her boyfriend mind too. Really upset for this.
When I want her to do thing for me in private, I really mean it. But she just took my suggestion as granted. I don't like to say again and again, and I don't really like to persuade things repeatedly like that te. Even in my work place, I don't like talk much, in my family, I rarely say funny story with my family cos they know I am a serious person and respect my words. If I say I want to do so, i really mean it, so they won't disapoint me at all unless they have their reason to do so.
For the one I like, I can do what she asks me to do. Today I wait for her call since the afternoon cos I think she could know how I feel at the moment. I want her to know what it is right or wrong. I don't say she totally wrong but at least I feel not happy or angry already, why don't she come to say a word? or a man needs to go first all the time even he is in bad mood? Till now, I accept nothing from her. I changed my profil pic in facebook by hoping she know my feeling, what I want. Till now, she hasn't done what I suggested her to do. It is not a big issue by just changing such things. It is for her only. I don't want everyone to know her clearly via the Too Much Popular Network likt this. In my page, I set all privacy which only my friends in real life who can see my personal staff there, but why can't you do this? if this afternoon you just change your name, your privacy, I also won't change my profile pic too.
I can say I am stubborn, you do too right? so please be tender a little bit, OK? Hmmm Just wish with the full moon in 15mn and hope everything will be done when I wake up tomorrow. We wil be the same as before. Don't call me tonigth if you happen to read this... but just do what I suggest ....
Happy Full Moon Day, Happy Water Festival To You My Only Star
Deepblue
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Be strong and shiny as a tiny hidden bright star
November 13, 2010 at 1:30 AM Midnight...
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and Forever, I want you to be happy no matter what happen. In order for you to live happily in this beautiful world, I can sacrifice everything for you. Remember that I will be by your side at all circumstances, so let me know everything that is kept in your mind. Two is mostly better than one. Though I can't guarantee that all the problems are able to be solved and handled, at least I can give some ideas which might be helpful or at least I can get some shares of your sadness, misery, stress, happiness, delightfulness…
Regarding the recent doubtfully informal news that you just heard, it is sometimes not like what you are thinking. I use the word Doubtfully Informal News because it is not publicly formal announcement yet, so it is not certain that this will happen. It is not the time to react yet, but we should to be proactive silently without other notices. I just want to tell you that you should think what you need to do now first or to achieve in future such as your study and your work. Please don't worry about what has not occurred yet since it is useless, waste of time, headache, distracted to your goal. Be the way you are as always, Smile, Study, Talk, Chat, Tease, Advise, and all activities you always do every day. Be strong and shiny as a tiny hidden bright star as ever.
Life is full of joy, sadness, happiness, misery, fun and so on. Life is so complicated but without its complication, life is not meaningful. People also have many problems in life, so deal with it one by one, step by step, day by day. No one can escape from problems and if they can do, they are not human. The only way is to solve them as soon as they occur or to eliminate them in term of their sizes. So treat your not-yet-arriving problem as a taste of life, or a test of God to make your life full of meaning. This also applies to me too. I really want to try this test once in life and I will try till the end. We can fight it together, ok? Moreover, it no longer uses traditional theory Nom Min Thom Jeang Neal or arranged marriage. You can oppose to this idea. Despite not knowing what will the result when you disagree with them, at least you have a try or you already try your best to protect this love.
For me, I feel confident enough to be with you and to persuade your family regarding my qualification, education, career, and mental and physical criterion. As I told you, my weakness is only one thing at the moment. However, I don't let this weakness be my obstacle to this love. We can't predict the future of someone, so let me show your parents I will be able to live a happy life with their daughter from my empty hands. I can't guarantee that I will be rich in term of wealth, but I am sure I am rich in term of heart. The unknown man, who might be rich, handsome, tall, high educated or vice versa, is not the core of the problem since he hasn't known you at all. Beside richness, I don't think he is better than me. Studying abroad, scholarship or self-expense? How many come from abroad and be jobless in Cambodia right now? It is the possible reason for you to tell your parents.
The day you told me about this, I felt very depressed and couldn't say anything right or hardly speak right, so I had better say nothing at all. The whole night of consideration I feel so released because I can find several situation and solution to deter and deal with the problem. The situations are as the following:
1. You are the youngest child, so you must be married the latest. Your two sisters still haven't got married, so at least 2 or 3 years more that it is your turn.
2. Your father wants you to study abroad, and then it is a good sign that you can't be arranged marriage by your parents in this year.
3. You are the dearest daughter in family, so they won't force you to do what you don't like. At least, they ask you before they do sth.
4. That guy may be not as good as described by your grandmother, and your father can see differently, then he cannot accept him.
The solutions to deal with the problem if it is really occurring:
1. As I will get post very soon, perhaps in January, then I will be stable and have gut to meet your parent.
2. As you said, you can go to study to escape the problem first, then two year later, you will be back and I also have enough money to marry you.
3. As long as your parents don't mind my status, I am sure I can persuade him to trust on me or even to like me.
When thinking of those situation and reasons, I feel so released. I want you to think positively too. Whenever you are sad, I am sadder. When you sleep less, I sleep the least. So be happy, and then I will be happier. If you live well, I will live best. I am so hurt when I know you silently cry in your room. I am so painful like a knife stabbing on my heart whenever I know you are depressed. You know sometimes I am so stubborn which can't accept your word easily, I am so sensitive that can get mad easily, and I am careless that can give enough care to you… but all are unintentional and pretending. One second later, my stubbornness, my sensitiveness, and my carelessness disappear automatically and I become obedient, sensible, and caring instead, do you feel it? Or you need me to raise the real example that I used to do? Through this hardship, our relationship builds stronger and stronger and it is like a growing tree which cannot fall easily just because of tornado, let alone a windy storm like this.
What you told me to follow today, they are already in my mind and soul. It is neither condition nor promise, but it is an unavoidable reality that I must do for you. Whatever you want me to do, I will do it for you. You also need to do something for yourself as well as for me.
1. Be happy and always smile
2. Tell me everything both bad or good
3. Keep up with your goal
4. Don't sleep too late, must care your health
5. Believe in me
6. Love me as much as I love you
These are core ones and there are many left that I can't think of right now.
Last but not least, we must try our best to deal with all problems. We must go for our goals. We can't surrender before fighting. We must overcome the obstacles. We will fight till the end. We must do everything to protect this love. We must love each other forever.
Love you from the bottom of my heart
It is 3:53 AM early Morning... More than 2 hours of writing this post without tiredness.
Deepblue
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and Forever, I want you to be happy no matter what happen. In order for you to live happily in this beautiful world, I can sacrifice everything for you. Remember that I will be by your side at all circumstances, so let me know everything that is kept in your mind. Two is mostly better than one. Though I can't guarantee that all the problems are able to be solved and handled, at least I can give some ideas which might be helpful or at least I can get some shares of your sadness, misery, stress, happiness, delightfulness…
Regarding the recent doubtfully informal news that you just heard, it is sometimes not like what you are thinking. I use the word Doubtfully Informal News because it is not publicly formal announcement yet, so it is not certain that this will happen. It is not the time to react yet, but we should to be proactive silently without other notices. I just want to tell you that you should think what you need to do now first or to achieve in future such as your study and your work. Please don't worry about what has not occurred yet since it is useless, waste of time, headache, distracted to your goal. Be the way you are as always, Smile, Study, Talk, Chat, Tease, Advise, and all activities you always do every day. Be strong and shiny as a tiny hidden bright star as ever.
Life is full of joy, sadness, happiness, misery, fun and so on. Life is so complicated but without its complication, life is not meaningful. People also have many problems in life, so deal with it one by one, step by step, day by day. No one can escape from problems and if they can do, they are not human. The only way is to solve them as soon as they occur or to eliminate them in term of their sizes. So treat your not-yet-arriving problem as a taste of life, or a test of God to make your life full of meaning. This also applies to me too. I really want to try this test once in life and I will try till the end. We can fight it together, ok? Moreover, it no longer uses traditional theory Nom Min Thom Jeang Neal or arranged marriage. You can oppose to this idea. Despite not knowing what will the result when you disagree with them, at least you have a try or you already try your best to protect this love.
For me, I feel confident enough to be with you and to persuade your family regarding my qualification, education, career, and mental and physical criterion. As I told you, my weakness is only one thing at the moment. However, I don't let this weakness be my obstacle to this love. We can't predict the future of someone, so let me show your parents I will be able to live a happy life with their daughter from my empty hands. I can't guarantee that I will be rich in term of wealth, but I am sure I am rich in term of heart. The unknown man, who might be rich, handsome, tall, high educated or vice versa, is not the core of the problem since he hasn't known you at all. Beside richness, I don't think he is better than me. Studying abroad, scholarship or self-expense? How many come from abroad and be jobless in Cambodia right now? It is the possible reason for you to tell your parents.
The day you told me about this, I felt very depressed and couldn't say anything right or hardly speak right, so I had better say nothing at all. The whole night of consideration I feel so released because I can find several situation and solution to deter and deal with the problem. The situations are as the following:
1. You are the youngest child, so you must be married the latest. Your two sisters still haven't got married, so at least 2 or 3 years more that it is your turn.
2. Your father wants you to study abroad, and then it is a good sign that you can't be arranged marriage by your parents in this year.
3. You are the dearest daughter in family, so they won't force you to do what you don't like. At least, they ask you before they do sth.
4. That guy may be not as good as described by your grandmother, and your father can see differently, then he cannot accept him.
The solutions to deal with the problem if it is really occurring:
1. As I will get post very soon, perhaps in January, then I will be stable and have gut to meet your parent.
2. As you said, you can go to study to escape the problem first, then two year later, you will be back and I also have enough money to marry you.
3. As long as your parents don't mind my status, I am sure I can persuade him to trust on me or even to like me.
When thinking of those situation and reasons, I feel so released. I want you to think positively too. Whenever you are sad, I am sadder. When you sleep less, I sleep the least. So be happy, and then I will be happier. If you live well, I will live best. I am so hurt when I know you silently cry in your room. I am so painful like a knife stabbing on my heart whenever I know you are depressed. You know sometimes I am so stubborn which can't accept your word easily, I am so sensitive that can get mad easily, and I am careless that can give enough care to you… but all are unintentional and pretending. One second later, my stubbornness, my sensitiveness, and my carelessness disappear automatically and I become obedient, sensible, and caring instead, do you feel it? Or you need me to raise the real example that I used to do? Through this hardship, our relationship builds stronger and stronger and it is like a growing tree which cannot fall easily just because of tornado, let alone a windy storm like this.
What you told me to follow today, they are already in my mind and soul. It is neither condition nor promise, but it is an unavoidable reality that I must do for you. Whatever you want me to do, I will do it for you. You also need to do something for yourself as well as for me.
1. Be happy and always smile
2. Tell me everything both bad or good
3. Keep up with your goal
4. Don't sleep too late, must care your health
5. Believe in me
6. Love me as much as I love you
These are core ones and there are many left that I can't think of right now.
Last but not least, we must try our best to deal with all problems. We must go for our goals. We can't surrender before fighting. We must overcome the obstacles. We will fight till the end. We must do everything to protect this love. We must love each other forever.
Love you from the bottom of my heart
It is 3:53 AM early Morning... More than 2 hours of writing this post without tiredness.
Deepblue
Friday, November 5, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Best memorial birthday party 27-10-1984
11:28pm, 27-10-1984, pp, cambodia
I don't know how to describe my feeling for today birthday since it was very wonderful and unforgettable event in my life... When I was 18 and passed ITC, my parents celebrated my first big birthday party and it was in my memory till now. In contrast, Today is my 26th birthday, which I can't forget because it has the present of my beloved...
I cannot describe how patient and careful she is when she stayed the whole night folding the 96 paper stars 26 of which represented my age. I was very excited when I saw those handmade works mixed with her heart for me. I love any gift she gave to me even they sometimes not suitable for my age lolzzzz (i am old but she bought the gift for youngster as if i were young hahaha). The party took place at Picnic resort , where is 125 km from PP. We spent nearly 2 h 30 to arrive there without any exhaustion. On the way, we have lots of things to talk about, we made lots of fun together, we teased each other, and so on... Even though it took much time to travel, I was not tired cos I had her sitting next to me, talking to me, caring me, and ... I have never driven a girl to that far, but she is the first person to make me feel so. Thanks so much for giving me such a good feeling, darling. In addition, when we arrived at Picnic, it was wonderful even more esp the scenery there which is so beautiful. We took the photos there too and here
After having lunch, we took a small nap in the kiosk built along the mountain which we can see the view from it. At nearly 3, we returned to PP with satisfaction, happiness, and memory. When arrived at PP, we ate Ice cream near Sovanna Mall before I dropped her home at around 6:30pm.
After that, my several best friends also celebrated my birthday party for me too. They called to the Titanic restaurant along the riverside and went to KTV until 11pm. Because they need to work tomorrow, so we can stay late tonight.
How wonderful it is! I will never forget this 26th birthday...
Thanks Honey, best friends for this party ... without you all, it won't occur.
Good night
Deepblue
I don't know how to describe my feeling for today birthday since it was very wonderful and unforgettable event in my life... When I was 18 and passed ITC, my parents celebrated my first big birthday party and it was in my memory till now. In contrast, Today is my 26th birthday, which I can't forget because it has the present of my beloved...
I cannot describe how patient and careful she is when she stayed the whole night folding the 96 paper stars 26 of which represented my age. I was very excited when I saw those handmade works mixed with her heart for me. I love any gift she gave to me even they sometimes not suitable for my age lolzzzz (i am old but she bought the gift for youngster as if i were young hahaha). The party took place at Picnic resort , where is 125 km from PP. We spent nearly 2 h 30 to arrive there without any exhaustion. On the way, we have lots of things to talk about, we made lots of fun together, we teased each other, and so on... Even though it took much time to travel, I was not tired cos I had her sitting next to me, talking to me, caring me, and ... I have never driven a girl to that far, but she is the first person to make me feel so. Thanks so much for giving me such a good feeling, darling. In addition, when we arrived at Picnic, it was wonderful even more esp the scenery there which is so beautiful. We took the photos there too and here
After having lunch, we took a small nap in the kiosk built along the mountain which we can see the view from it. At nearly 3, we returned to PP with satisfaction, happiness, and memory. When arrived at PP, we ate Ice cream near Sovanna Mall before I dropped her home at around 6:30pm.
After that, my several best friends also celebrated my birthday party for me too. They called to the Titanic restaurant along the riverside and went to KTV until 11pm. Because they need to work tomorrow, so we can stay late tonight.
How wonderful it is! I will never forget this 26th birthday...
Thanks Honey, best friends for this party ... without you all, it won't occur.
Good night
Deepblue
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
For broken heart...to wak up
What I am proud of this poem is that it was copied immediately after I posted in Facebook.... Now nearly become famous heuy nhom...gagagagag
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Nothing new for today
At 11:12PM, PP, Cambodia
Second day of reading and reviewing the lesson for upcoming exam seems not satisfying to me at all. I couldn't concentrate well in the morning cos of slightly headache, and in the after noon just reviewed the yesterday reading. In the evening, I briefed and summarized what i already read and understood. So today was just the review day of what I already read.
However, I feel that I am now moving toward the goal step by step. I feel like reading again and start addicted to the ACCA book again. This resulted from my commitment as well as other motivation like my family and her :). Just wanna thank them for making me have that feeling again. Thanks so much.
Although abit tired since long hours of reading, I still want to write this in my blog for someone to read...
Good night
Deepblue
Second day of reading and reviewing the lesson for upcoming exam seems not satisfying to me at all. I couldn't concentrate well in the morning cos of slightly headache, and in the after noon just reviewed the yesterday reading. In the evening, I briefed and summarized what i already read and understood. So today was just the review day of what I already read.
However, I feel that I am now moving toward the goal step by step. I feel like reading again and start addicted to the ACCA book again. This resulted from my commitment as well as other motivation like my family and her :). Just wanna thank them for making me have that feeling again. Thanks so much.
Although abit tired since long hours of reading, I still want to write this in my blog for someone to read...
Good night
Deepblue
Monday, October 18, 2010
Count as Day 1
7:40pm, 17-10-2010
As I commit, I start reading the book for my upcoming exam taking part on Dec 8, 2010. First day after long time no read is not bad for me even though I feel slightly headache in the afternoon. It can be treated as a productive day as I can cover part A successfully. However, i have many pages to read and practice more and more. I hope I can do it. Meanwhile, I feel not so well in term of limited period of time , which somehow I don't know if I can cover all part all not.
I don't want to go to CamEd to read but I have no place to read effectively other than CamEd. It make me remind of something unhappy again. But for my study, my exam, my beloved person and family, I need to encounter that...
Deepblue
As I commit, I start reading the book for my upcoming exam taking part on Dec 8, 2010. First day after long time no read is not bad for me even though I feel slightly headache in the afternoon. It can be treated as a productive day as I can cover part A successfully. However, i have many pages to read and practice more and more. I hope I can do it. Meanwhile, I feel not so well in term of limited period of time , which somehow I don't know if I can cover all part all not.
I don't want to go to CamEd to read but I have no place to read effectively other than CamEd. It make me remind of something unhappy again. But for my study, my exam, my beloved person and family, I need to encounter that...
Deepblue
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Her Third Day In Korea
At 9:37, 14-10-2010, PP, Cambodia
Good to see her happy in Korea... Today she was online and we were very playful on Facebook together this morning. Everything was not bad to her like the first day since she enjoyed Busan very much esp the view of the beaches from her window of hotel... She told me that she liked the weather there and will miss it when she comes back Cambodia lolzzz... Moreover, the taste of ice cream are completely different from that in Cambodia since they are so yummy, and she told she liked it very much and that's why, when Koreans are sad, they like eating Ice Cream lol...hahaha..
so when you are sad, what do you want to do huh?
for me, I like driving around the city to get fresh air whenever I am stuck... I guess you already know.
Tomorrow is your last day, right? As scheduled, you will arrive in the evening by 9 PM, right?
So let say have a safe trip again. Enjoy your last day in Seoul, and back home safe...
Good Night
Deepblue
Good to see her happy in Korea... Today she was online and we were very playful on Facebook together this morning. Everything was not bad to her like the first day since she enjoyed Busan very much esp the view of the beaches from her window of hotel... She told me that she liked the weather there and will miss it when she comes back Cambodia lolzzz... Moreover, the taste of ice cream are completely different from that in Cambodia since they are so yummy, and she told she liked it very much and that's why, when Koreans are sad, they like eating Ice Cream lol...hahaha..
so when you are sad, what do you want to do huh?
for me, I like driving around the city to get fresh air whenever I am stuck... I guess you already know.
Tomorrow is your last day, right? As scheduled, you will arrive in the evening by 9 PM, right?
So let say have a safe trip again. Enjoy your last day in Seoul, and back home safe...
Good Night
Deepblue
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